Wines

Long long ago i said some thing.. Some thing like..
"It's like a fine wine, Some relationship takes a long time to mature"

But if u just waited and waited for the time to come and u didn't know the show is over. And the what we have? It is interesting to say I know what we have. There is a subject in the community medicine called d "Behavioral Science" .They say this is the "Defense Mechanism". (Not the thing Mr. Bush has in mind.) It is just some thing ppl do to escape the reality that he is a looser. Compensating, Projecting, Escaping blah blah blah.. what ever u say it is nothing can change the fact.

I'm feeling a lill bit of lonely. Yesterday two of my friends Jishan and Rakib stayed with me. So It was. We went to shopping and came home last night. Then we went to the roof top and for an hour we were sitting in the rain. (Sounds GAY? heck it was fun).It was a Long Day and a Good Day i can say. But today what can i say. I just feeling terrible. Not any kinda health thing but i'm depressed.

Do i hear loneliness sickness. No u ppl know that i never get bored of my self :P I just feeling terrible for last 8 months. From those i was with Roll #43 for like 5 months. And What i have become. There is a self generating hate for that girl that i can't even say her name. What I've become. GOD.. help me..
Long long ago i said some thing.. Some thing like..
"Forgive, sounds good.
Forget, I'm not sure I could.
They say time heals everything,

But I'm still..."

Did i forgive her? YES i did. Can i forget her? YES i have to. Does time will heal me? YES i think.
Can i feel someone the way i felt for her? Can i love again? No, I'm not sure ryt now. It is not the time. I need to get mature. I have to.. Like some fine wine.

These are the thoughts. Some song to say what is going on?I love tis sone. Each and every word says my story..

Soundtrack: Meet The Robinsons
Title: Little Wonders (Rob Thomas)

let it go,
let it roll right off your shoulder
don't you know
the hardest part is over
let it in,
let your clarity define you
in the end
we will only just remember how it feels

our lives are made
in these small hours
these little wonders,
these twists & turns of fate
time falls away,
but these small hours,
these small hours still remain

let it slide,
let your troubles fall behind you
let it shine
until you feel it all around you
and i don't mind
if it's me you need to turn to
we?ll get by,
it's the heart that really matters in the end

our lives are made
in these small hours
these little wonders,
these twists & turns of fate
time falls away,
but these small hours,
these small hours still remain

all of my regret
will wash away some how
but i can not forget
the way i feel right now...


(PS: Life is fool of turns and the wine will goes for thousand years. I think i wont be like that any more.. )